When I decided to start a blog, I thought I would write posts encouraging my readers to use the parenting, homemaking, and money saving/get out of debt strategies that have worked for me. You see, those are the types of blogs and posts that I’m drawn to. I love knowing that someone had a parenting issue, came up with a solution and is now reaping the benefits of that solution. Knowing that someone else has been in my situation and has come out on the other side gives me hope.
However, I have come to the stark realization that I have no advice worthy of dispensing. Pretty much everything that I try to make my life and my family’s life better, backfires on me.
My house is a mess. No matter how hard I try, I can’t seem to keep up with the laundry and cleaning. I’ve attempted to enlist the help of my family by creating chore charts, but it each day ends with me nagging and all of us angry.
I’m as disorganized as they come. I create lists and meal plans, but then I can’t find them and something important is forgotten and I’m ordering take-out because I didn’t remember to take anything out the freezer for dinner.
Our finances are a mess and we are drowning in debt. Despite our best efforts to increase revenue, our business does not provide enough income for us and the new business I’m trying to create is stuck at square one.
My kids love each other, but they fight all the time. All. The. Time. This year we had hoped to instill a little bit of gratitude and a sense of giving in them by using an Advent Calendar with 25 Random Acts of Christmas Kindness, instead of using the Lego Advent Calendars we have in years past, which teach nothing about the spirit of the season. They could care less about the calendar. They are not excited about making someone’s day by giving them a compliment or by leaving a surprise on their doorstep.
Other bloggers seem to have it so easy. They come up with recipes and solutions to problems. They take great photos as proof of their accomplishments. The create fabulous graphics to market their solutions. And they make money for doing all of this.
It sounds like I’m jealous and maybe I am a little, but many of the bloggers I read say things like, “God has given me the answers.” or “I asked God for help and he provided.” Well, I ask God for help all the time and I don’t hear any anything from Him. I think I’m listening, but maybe I can’t hear Him. I don’t know why He won’t help me, but I do know that I’m spinning my wheels and I have no traction in any area of my life.
Please don’t get me wrong, I am grateful for all that I have; a great husband, 4 healthy children, food on the table and a roof over my head. This is not a pity party. It’s simply my reality. What I’ve stated above are facts.
What’s my point for rambling on like this? Well, I’ve tried to be upbeat and encouraging on this blog and it’s just not working for me. So I’m going to be real which means you may not get any of the answers you are looking for on this blog because I don’t have any answers. I only have my current situation and I’m going to continue to write about it. I just hope that someone finds it interesting or entertaining enough to read.