The 3rd time’s a charm, right? Well, not for me!
On July 10, 2007 I had my 3rd positive pregnancy test in 8 months.
For 18 days I was hopeful, but scared. I didn’t lift anything heavy for fear of causing a miscarriage. I immediately stopped drinking caffeine. I did anything I could think of to keep this baby alive.
However, on July 29th, I realized that I had lost this baby too.
I couldn’t believe it! So many questions were going through my mind. Why is this happening? What am I doing wrong? How do I fix this? Will I ever be able to have more children?
I started to ask my doctor these questions. I was told that they don’t really start looking for any medical issues until someone has had 4 or 5 miscarriages. WHAT? So I needed to go through this emotionally draining experience again before they will start to look for a cause? I was frustrated to say the least!
I was under a lot of stress at work and I wondered if that could be affecting my ability to carry a baby to term. My husband and I started talking about the possibility of me switching from full time work to part time and what that would mean for our family and our finances.
Our son, who was 3 1/2 at the time, had been in daycare since he was 11 weeks old. With the thought that he might be our only child bouncing around in my head, I realized that I didn’t want to miss out on any more time with him. I wanted to enjoy his early years without the stress of work always hanging over me.
My husband and I decided that it would be best if I stepped down from my position as vice-president. In September I started working 3 days a week and it’s one of the best decisions I’ve ever made! I enjoyed that extra time with my son more than I thought I would.
The pain of my miscarriages was still there and I still feel it to this day, but that pain helped me to appreciate the miracle that my son is and no matter how crazy he makes me, I am grateful for him every single day.
Here are the first 3 posts in this series.
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