Well, hello again! I hope you all had a great summer and are now enjoying the beautiful fall weather!
I unexpectedly took the summer off from blogging. Having five kiddos home for 11 weeks was a lot of fun, but it left me very little time for other things such as my blog! Three of them are back in school full time and one is in school part time. The baby is obviously home with me and now that I’m caught up on laundry again, I can focus on some other things on my to do list! I have lots of great ideas for post and I plan to write here at least once a week. I will also be launching a new business within the next week or so. Stay tuned for that announcement! 🙂
One of the things that has been on my to do list for years is to find a way to honor the six babies that I lost early in pregnancy. Those losses were devastating and I’m not looking to dwell on them, but they have shaped my family and who I am today. I want these babies to continue to be part of my family’s narrative.
Although I never met them, I loved them. I dreamt about them and who I thought they would become. I mourned them when they were gone. I cried when the realization hit that I would never hold them in my arms. They will forever be a part of me.
October was Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month and that proved to be the motivation that I needed to find a way to remember these sweet babies that I never met.
I’ve considered making angels to hang on the Christmas tree each year, but I wanted something that would honor them all year, not just at Christmastime.
I searched the internet for hours to find a piece of jewelry that I could customize, but couldn’t find anything that would represent all of my children.
I found poems to hang on the wall, but I wanted something that I could keep with me.
So what’s a determined woman to do? Well, I created my motherhood bracelet of course!!
I made a crochet bracelet with 11 beads to represent my children: 3 blue beads for my boys, 2 pink beads for my girls and 6 white beads for the babies I never met. It was important to me to include all 11 of my children.
I love wearing it.
And I love talking about it. I want it to be a conversation starter. I want to talk about my miscarriages and the hope and fear I had with each pregnancy. I want other women to know that they are not alone if they’ve had a miscarriage. It’s hard and painful, but it’s also very common and nothing to be ashamed of. We need to support each other and not ignore the pain. We need to honor the lives that we created. I want other women to know that the fear they have when carrying a baby to term after a miscarriage is normal too.
This bracelet is a constant reminder to me that each life is precious.
If you’ve had a miscarriage, please know that from the bottom of my heart, I am truly sorry for your loss. If you need a shoulder to cry on, please contact me.
I would love to hear how you and your family honor the babies you lost. Do you have a special piece of jewelry or a special tradition?